wildflowers

One of the things about being a mom that I find hard is worrying that I will forget.

My husband has the better memory between the two of us. He will remember silly things the girls said or did when they were babies .. and I am just left scratching my head because I have no recollection of any of it. I can’t blame it on sleep deprivation… I just have a poor memory. Sometimes my sister or cousins will recall stories from our childhood and it is as I was not there because I don’t remember. For my own childhood.. I don’t mind so much. But for my children’s childhood.. I worry. I want to be able to remember things. What they liked to play, what they found hilarious, the silly things they said.. but it is all so fleeting and sometimes I feel like my mind is consumed with everyday things rather than the larger picture.

So I take photos and videos. Oh how I enjoy looking at videos of them and marvel at how much they have grown in a few short years.  I cannot imagine my kids growing out of dress up and princesses and playgrounds and sprinklers. And I worry that when they do, it will be so gradual that I will forget all these beautiful memories and moments in our lives.

Perhaps I am just crazy.

(I wanted to take some pics in these wildflowers before they disappear. My younger daughter is always happy to be in front of the camera.. she quickly put on her ‘flower dress’ and off we went. I don’t have to direct her much at all.. she gives me all these looks and ‘poses’ all by herself. )

xoxo, Rashmi