I love sunrises, a hot cup of chai, toasted sourdough bread and good cheese.
I am impatient, organized, full of ideas (too many ideas) and a recovering procrastinator.
I don’t like clutter and believe to the core of my being that Less is More. Edit, edit, edit.
I am trusting, friendly, social and have a terrible sense of humour.
I love feeling the wind through my fingers when I am driving. This simple thing, feeling something that cannot be seen always makes my mind pause from the endless to-do lists in my head.
I am a person who finds it very difficult to watch my children grow up. Bittersweet.
I love to see all the new things they do and say but my eyes well up with tears when I see a mother running errands with her toddler. Those days went by too fast. They were exhausting, messy days but beautiful in every way.
I am a person who wishes she could bottle up every single sweet word, every smile, every belly laugh, every single tear and save it for the day when I am old and my children are grown. I worry I will forget. I have already forgotten so much (I have a terrible memory).
As my children grow, I try and photograph their essence. Not the canned smiles, but the real them. I know these photographs will trigger memories many years from now.. ‘remember when she was sitting out on the trampoline because she was afraid the other girl would jump on her?‘… ‘remember when she looked out of the window and stared at the cars outside for long minutes?’.
If you commission me to photograph your family and put your trust in me, I will capture the beautiful connection you have with your children. The unique way you hold them and that they hold you back. That thumb in their mouth, the way they rub your elbow to soothe themselves. Don’t worry about looking perfect and smiling and looking at the camera. That is my job, and I have learned to do it well.
My gift to myself will be that each time I make a photograph that you will cherish, I will fix a a little piece of my heart that wishes I had stepped in front of the camera more often when my children were very little.
Photo © Yan Photography